среда, 11 июня 2014 г.

True/False

There comes a point,  when you think that there is no more strangeness in your life. But it's just lull before hurricane. Life acquires new colors and turns. Everything changes every minute with crazy speed, but in what side, you can't understand. Wake up only when there isn't any road back. Appear so much "but" and reasons. So much people who want something from you. And there is no logic in their actions. so complicated and so stupid. Сan't believe in words, they are't matched with real feelings. Somewhere I understand, it's wrong and also it need an end so many days ago, but i can't. I know that it won't let for something good, or generally for something. However, I got used to it.
 That your odor, that makes me crazy. One time, you left it on my t-shirt, and i was ready to breath only that. Sometimes I feel it in the crowd and i hope that you are near, but you don't. and you weren't. Just an illusion of needs. but it was obvious. So good question: "for what?" -For nothing. Cause I want so. Why you turned sad? I have said that there is nothing in future, haven't I? So, it's your problem, dear. I do what I want when I feel like it.
  That fucking eyes, in which I have drowned. One moment I even believed that they look so frankly. When were closed and so near, don't need anything else.
  Of course i understood that there is a trick somewhere. But I wanted to be deceived. No, no hope, especially false hope. It's the worst feeling. Now I have nothing.  This time I felt nothing, was easily.
  Just last question: where it all are going? Oh, i suppose, I know the answer, the only answer - it all are going to hell.